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riendshipandbeautyandnature.andiamgladyouhavetaughtthechildrenthesethings,foriknowtheirlivesarebetterforit.theytellmehowspecialyouaretothem,anditmakesmefeelliketheluckiestwomanalive.

youhavetaughtmeaswell,andinspiredmeandsupportedmeinmypainting,andyouwillneverknowhowmuchithasmeanttomethatyouwerealwaysthere,encouragingme.youunderstoodmyneedformyownstudio,myownspace,andsawbeyondthepaintonmyclothesandinmyhair.iknowitwasnoteasy.ittakesamantodothat,noah,tolivewithsomethinglikethat.andyouhave.forforty-fiveyearsnow.wonderfulyears.

youaremybestfriendaswellasmylover,andidonotknowwhichsideofyouienjoythemost.itreasureeachside,justasihavetreasuredourlifetogether.youhavesomethinginsideyou,noah,somethingbeautifulandstrong.kindness,that'swhatiseewhenilookatyounow,that'swhateveryonesees.kindness.

iknowyouthinkmecrazyformakinguswriteourstorybeforewefinallyleaveourhome,butihavemyreasonsandithankyouforyourpatience.inevertoldyouwhy,butnowithinkitistimeyouknew.wehavelivedalifetimemostcouplesneverknow,andwhenilookatyouiamfrightenedbytheknowledgethatallthiswillbeendingsoon.forwebothknowmyprognosis.iworrymoreaboutyouthanidoaboutme,becauseifearthepainiknowyouwillgothrough.therearenowordstoexpressmysorrowforthis.

iloveyousodeeply,soincrediblymuch,thatiwillfindawaytocomebacktoyoudespitemydisease,ipromiseyouthat.andthisiswherethestorycomesin.wheniamlostandlonely,readthisstory—justasyoutoldittothechildren—andknowthatinsomewayiwillrealizeit'saboutus.andperhaps,justperhaps,wewillfindawaytobetogetheragain.

pleasedon'tbeangrywithmeondaysidonotrememberyou—webothknowtheywillcome.knowthatiwillalwaysloveyou,andnomatterwhathappens,knowthatihaveledthegreatestlifepossible.mylifewithyou.

noah,whereveryouareandwheneveryoureadthis,iloveyou.iloveyoudeeply,myhusband.youare,andalwayshavebeen,mydream.

allie

iputtheletteraside,risefrommydeskandfindmyslippers.imustsittoputthemon.then,standing,icrosstheroomandopenmydoor.ipeepdownthehallandseejaniceseatedatthemaindeskwhichimustpasstogettoallie'sroom.atthishouriamnotsupposedtoleavemyroom,andjaniceisneveronetobendtherules.

iwaittoseeifshewillleave,butshedoesnotandigrowimpatient.ifinallyexitmyroomanyway,slow-shuffle,slide-the-right,slow-shuffle.ittakesaeonstoclosethedistance,butforsomereasonshedoesnotseemeapproaching.iamasilentpanthercreepingthroughthejungle.intheendiamdiscovered,butiamnotsurprised.istandbeforeher.

"noah,"shesays,"whatareyoudoing?"

"i'mtakingawalk,"isay."ican'tsleep."

"youknowyou'renotsupposedtodothis."

"iknow."idon'tmove,though.iamdetermined.

"you'renotreallygoingforawalk,areyou?you'regoingtoseeallie."

"yes,"ianswer.

"noah,youknowwhathappenedthelasttimeyousawheratnight.youshouldn'tbedoingthis."

"imissher."

"iknowyoudo,butican'tletyouseeher."

"it'souranniversary,"isay.thisistrue.itisoneyearbeforegold.forty-nineyearstoday.

"isee."shelooksawayforamoment,andhervoicebecomessofter.iamsurprised.shehasneverstruckmeasthesentimentaltype."noah,i'veseenhundredsofcouplesstrugglewithgrief,buti'veneverseenanyonehandleitlikeyoudo.noonearoundherehaseverseenanythinglikeit."shepausesforjustamomentandhereyesbegintofillwithtears."itrytothinkwhatit'slikeforyou,howyoukeepgoingdayafterday,butican'timagineit.idon'tknowhowyoudoit.youevenbeatherdiseasesometimes.eventhoughthedoctorsdon'tunderstandit,wenursesdo.it'slove—it'sassimpleasthat.it'sthemostincrediblethingi'veeverseen."

alumphasriseninmythroat,andiamspeechless.

"but,noah,you'renotsupposedtodothis,andican'tletyou.sogobacktoyourroom."then,smiling,snifflingandshufflingsomepapers,shesays:"me,i'mgoingdownstairsforsomecoffee.iwon'tbebacktocheckonyouforawhile,sodon'tdoanythingfoolish."

sherisesquickly,touchesmyarmandwalkstowardsthestairs.shedoesn'tlookbackandsuddenlyiamalone.ilookatwhereshehadbeensittingandseehercoffee,afullcup,stillsteaming,andonceagainilearnthattherearegoodpeopleintheworld.

asibeginmytrektoallie'sroom,itaketinysteps,andevenatthatpacemylegsgrowtired.ifindimusttouchthewalltokeepfromfallingdown.lightsbuzzoverhead,theirfluorescentglowmakingmyeyesache,andisquintalittle.ipresson,andthemovementforcesbloodthroughbanishedarteries.ifeelmyselfbecomingstrongerwitheverystep.aphoneringsinthenurses'station,andipushforwardsothatiwillnotbecaught.iamyoungandstrong,withpassioninmyheart,andiwillbreakdownthedoorandliftherinmyarmsandcarryhertoparadise.

whoamikidding?ileadasimplelifenow.iamfoolish,anoldmaninlove,adreamerwhodreamsofnothingbutreadingtoallieandholdingherwheneverican.iamasinnerwithmanyfaultsandamanwhobelievesinmagic,butiamtoooldtochangeandtoooldtocare.

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