ahwasinthelivingroomsquattingbeforeafire,doinghisbesttocoaxittolife.hedidn’tseehercomein,andshewatchedhimasheworked.hehadchangedhisclothesaswellandlookedgood:hisshouldersbroad,wethairhangingjustoverhiscollar.
hepokedthefire,movingthelogs,andaddedsomemorekindling.allieleanedagainstthedoorjamb,onelegcrossedovertheother,andcontinuedtowatchhim.inafewminutesthefirehadturnedtoflames,evenandsteady.heturnedtothesidetostraightentheremainingunusedlogsandcaughtaglimpseofheroutofthecornerofhiseye.helookedupquickly.
eveninhisclothesshelookedbeautiful.afteramomentheshylywentbacktostackingthelogs.
“ididn’thearyoucomein.”hesaid,tryingtosoundcasual.“howlonghaveyoubeenstandingthere?”
“acoupleofminutes.”
noahbrushedhishandsonhisjeans,thenpointedtothekitchen.“canigetyousometea?istartedthewaterwhileyouwereupstairs.”smalltalk,anythingtokeephismindclear.butdamn,thewayshelooked...
shethoughtforasecond.doyouhaveanythingstronger,orisittooearlytodrink?”
hesmiled.“ihavesomebourboninthepantry.isthatokay?”
“thatsoundsgreat.”
hestartedtowardsthekitchen,andalliewatchedhimrunhishandthroughhiswethairashedisappeared.
thunderboomedloudlyandanotherdownpourstarted.alliecouldheartheroaringoftherainontheroof,couldhearthesnappingoflopastheflickeringflameslittheroom.shetookaquiltfromthesofaandsatontheruginfrontofthefire.crossingherlegs,sheadjustedthequiltuntilshewascomfortableandwatchedthedancingflames.noahcameback,sawwhatshehaddone,andwenttositbesideher.heputdowntwoglassesandpouredsomebourbonintoeachofthem.outside,theskygrewdarker.thunderagain.loud.thestorminfullfury,windswhippingtherainincircles.
“it’squiteastorm,”noahsaidashewatchedthedropsflowinverticalstreamsonthewindows.heandalliewereclosenow,thoughnottouching,andnoahwatchedherchestriseslightlywitheverybreath,imaginingthefeelofherbodyonceagainbeforefightingbackthethought
“ilikeit,”shesaid,takingasip.“i’vealwayslikedthunderstorms.evenasayounggirl.”
“why?”sayinganything,keepinghisbalance.
“idon’tknow.theyjustalwaysseemedromantictome.”
shewasquietforamoment,andnoahwatchedthefireflickerinheremeraldeyes.thenshesaid,“doyouremembersittingtogetherandwatchingthestormafewnightsbeforeileft?”
“ofcourse.”
“iusedtothinkaboutitallthetimeafteriwenthome.ialwaysthoughtabouthowyoulookedthatnight.itwasthewayirememberedyou.”
“haveichangedmuch?”
shetookanothersipofbourbon,feelingitwarmher.shetouchedhishandassheanswered.
“notreally.notinthethingsthatiremember.you’reolder,ofcourse,withmorelifebehindyou,butyou’vestillgotthesamegleaminyoureye.youstillreadpoetryandfloatonrivers.andyou’vestillgotagentlenessthatnoteventhewarcouldtakeaway.”
hethoughtaboutwhatshe’dsaidandfeltherhandlingeringonhis,herthumbtracingslowcircles.
“allie,youaskedmeearlierwhatirememberedmostaboutthesummer.whatdoyouremember?”
itwasawhilebeforesheanswered."iremembermakinglove.that'swhatiremembermost.youweremyfirst,anditwasmorewonderfulthanieverthoughtitwouldbe."
noahtookadrinkofbourbon,remembering,bringingbacktheoldfeelings.
shewenton."irememberbeingsoafraidbeforehandthatiwastrembling,butatthesametimebeingsoexcited.i'mgladyouwerethefirst.i'mgladwewereabletosharethat."
"metoo."
"wereyouasafraidasiwas?"
noahnoddedwithoutspeaking,andshesmiledathishonesty.
shesqueezedhishand,letgo,andmovedcloser.sheputherhandthroughhisarm,cradlingit,andrestedherheadonhisshoulder.hecouldsmellher,softliketherain,warm.shespokequietly."doyourememberwalkinghomeafterthefestival?iaskedyouifyouwantedtoseemeagain.youjustnoddedyourheadanddidn'tsayaword.itwasn’ttooconvincing."
"i'dnevermetanyonelikeyou.ididn'tknowwhattosay."
"iknow.youcouldneverhideanything.youreyesalwaysgaveyouaway.youhadthemostwonderfuleyesi'deverseen."sheliftedherheadfromhisshoulderandlookeddirectlyathim.whenshespoke,hervoicewasbarelyaboveawhisper."ithinkilovedyoumorethatsummerthanieverlovedanyone."
lightningflashedagain.inthequietmomentsbeforethethunder,theireyesmetastheytriedtoundofourteenyears.whenthethunderfinallysounded,noahsighedandturnedfromher,towardsthewindows.
"iwishyoucouldhavereadthelettersiwroteyou,"hesaid.
shedidn'tspeakforawhile.
"itwasn'tjustuptoyou,noah.ididn’ttellyou,butiwroteyouadozenlettersafterigothome.ijustneversentthem."
"why?"noahwassurprised.
"iguessiwastooafraid."
"ofwhat?"
"thatmaybeitwasn’tasrealasithoughtitwas.thatmaybeyouforgotme."
"iwouldneverdothat.icouldn'teventhinkit."
"iknowthatnow.icanseeitwhenitookatyou.butbackthenitwasdifferent.therewassomuchididn'tunderstand,thingsthatayounggirl'smindcouldn'tsortout."
"whatdoyoumean?”
"whenyourlettersnevercame,ididn'tknoww上一页 [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] ... 下一页 >>
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