hattothink.iremembertalkingtomybestfriendaboutthatsummer,andshesaidthatyouhadgotwhatyouwanted,andthatshewasn'tsurprisedthatyouwouldn'twrite.ididn'tbelievethatyouwerethatway,ineverdid,buthearingitandthinkingaboutallourdifferencesmademewonderifmaybethesummermeantmoretomethanithadmeanttoyou...”
noahlookedawayandshecontinued."intime,thehurtbegantofadeanditwaseasiertojustletitgo.atleastithoughtitwas.butineveryboyimetinthenextfewyearsifoundmyselflookingforyou,andwhenthefeelingsgottoostrongi'dwriteyouanotherletter.butineversentthemforfearofwhatimightfind.bythenyou'dgoneonwithyourlifeandididn'twanttothinkaboutyouloving-someoneelse.iwantedtorememberuslikewewerethatsummer."
"you'rebetterthaniremembered,allie."
"you'resweet,noah."
healmoststoppedthere,knowingthatifhekeptthewordsinsidehimhecouldkeepcontrol,thesamecontrolhehadkeptthepastfourteenyears.butthensomethingovertookhimandhegaveintoit,hopingitwouldtakethembacktowhatthey'dhadsolongago.
"i'mnotsayingitbecausei'msweet.i'msayingitbecauseiloveyounowandialwayshave.morethanyoucanimagine."
alogsnapped,sendingsparksupthechimney,andbothofthemnoticedthesmoulderingremains,almostburnedthrough.
allietookasipofbourbonandbegantofeelitseffects.butitwasn’tjustthealcoholthatmadeherholdnoahalittletighterandfeethiswarmthagainsther.glancingoutofthewindow,shesawthecloudswerealmostblack."noah,you'veneverasked,butiwantyoutoknowsomething."
"whatisit?"
hervoicewastender."there'sneverbeenanother,noah.youweren'tjustthefirst.you'retheonlyman-i'veeverbeenwith,idon’texpectyoutosaythesamething,butiwantedyoutoknow."
noahwassilentasheturnedaway.shefeltwarmerasshewatchedthefire.sheleanedintohimandfelttheheatbetweenthem,felthisbody,felthisarmtightaroundher.itfeltsorighttobehere.everythingfeltright.thefire,thedrinks,thestorm—it
couldn'thavebeenmoreperfect.itseemedtheiryearsapartdidn'tmatteranymore.
theygaveinthentoeverythingtheyhadfoughtagainstforthelastfourteenyears.allieliftedherheadoffhisshoulder,lookedathimwithhazyeyes,andnoahkissedhersoftlyonthelips.shebroughtherhandtohisfaceandtouchedhischeek,brushingitsoftlywithherfingers.heleanedinandkissedhertenderly,andshekissedback,feelingtheyearsofseparationdissolveintopassion.
sheclosedhereyesandpartedherlipsasheranhisfingersupanddownherarms,slowly,lightly.hekissedherneck,hercheek,hereyelids,andshefeltthemoistureofhismouthlingerwhereverhislipshadtouched.shetookhishandandledittoherbreasts,andawhimperroseinherthroatashegentlytouchedthemthroughthethinfabricoftheshirt.
theworldseemeddreamlikeasshepulledbackfromhim,thefirelightsettingherfaceaglow.withoutspeaking,shestartedtoundothebuttonsonhisshirt.hewatchedherasshediditandlistenedtohersoftbreathsasshemadeherwaydownwards.witheachbuttonhecouldfeelherfingersbrushingagainsthisskin,andshesmiledsoftlyathimwhenshefinallyfinished.hefeltherslideherhandsinside,touchinghimlightly,exploringhisbody.shekissedhisneckgentlyasshepulledtheshirtoverhisshoulders,freeingthesleeves.withthat,heslowlyreachedforher.heliftedhershirtandranhisfingerslowlyacrossherbellybeforeraisingherarmsandslippingitoff.shefeltshortofbreathashishandsgentlycaressedherback,herarms,hershoulders,andshefelttheirheatedbodiespresstogether,skintoskin.
theylayback,closetothefire,andtheheatmadetheairseemthick.sheranherhandsthroughhishairasheheldhimselfaboveher,hisarmmuscleshardfromtheexertion.withalittletemptingfrown,shepulledhimcloser,butheresisted.insteadheloweredhimselfandlightlyrubbedhischestagainsther,andshefeltherbodyrespondwithanticipation.
hedidthisuntilshecouldn'ttakeitanymore,andwhentheyfinallyjoinedasone,shecriedaloudandpressedherfingershardintohisback.sheburiedherfaceinhisneckandfelthimdeepinsideher,felthisstrengthandgentleness.
sheopenedhereyesandwatchedhiminthefirelight,marvellingathisbeauty.shesawhisbodyglistenwithcrystalsweatandfelteveryresponsibility,everyfacetofherlife,slippingaway.
bythetimetherainhadstoppedandthesunhadset,herbodywasexhausted.theyspentthedayineachother'sarms,alternatelymakinglovebythefireandthenholdingeachotherastheywatchedtheflamescurlaroundthewood.herecitedhisfavouritepoemsasshelaybesidehim,andshelistenedwithhereyesclosedandalmostfeltthewords.thentheyjoinedagainandhemurmuredwordsoflovebetweenkissesastheywrappedtheirarmsaroundoneanother.
theywentonthroughouttheevening,makingupfortheiryearsapart,andsleptineachother'sarmsthatnight.occasionallyhewouldwakeupandlookather,herbodyspentandradiant,andfeelasifeverythingweresuddenlytightinthisworld.
once,whenhewaslookingatherinthemomentsbeforedaybreak,hereyesflutteredopenandshesmiledandreacheduptotouchhisface.heputhisfingerstoherlips,gently,tokeepherfromspeaking,andforalongtimetheyjustlookedatoneanother.
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