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achedforthelastletter,theoneonthebottomofthestack.thegoodbyeletter.thisoneinterestedherfarmore.howhadhesaidit?howwouldshehavesaidit?

theenvelopewasthin.one,maybetwopages.whateverhehadwrittenwasn'ttoolong.sheturneditoverandcheckedtheback.noname,justastreetaddressinnewjersey.sheheldherbreathassheusedherfingernailtopriseitopen.

unfoldingit,shesawitwasdatedmarch1935.twoandahalfyearswithoutareply.

shestraightenedthepageandbegantoread.

mydearestallie,

idon'tknowwhattosayanymoreexceptthaticouldn'tsleeplastnightbecauseiknewthatitisoverbetweenus.itisadifferentfeelingforme,onethatineverexpected.lookingback,isupposeitcouldn'thaveendedanotherway.

youandiweredifferent.wecamefromdifferentworlds,andyetyouweretheonewhotaughtmethevalueoflove.youshowedmewhatitwasliketocareforanother,andiamabettermanbecauseofit.idon'twantyouevertoforgetthat.

iamnotbitterbecauseofwhathashappened.onthecontraryiamsecureinknowingthatwhatwehadwasreal,andiamhappywewereabletocometogetherforevenashorttime.andif,insomedistantplaceinthefuture,weseeeachotherinournewlives,iwillsmileatyouwithjoy,andrememberhowwespentasummerlearningfromeachotherandgrowinginlove.andmaybe,forabriefmoment,you'llfeelittoo,andyou'llsmilebackandsavourthememorieswewillalwaysshare.

iloveyou,allie.

noah

shereadtheletteragain,thenputitbackintotheenvelope.sheknewshecouldn'tdelayanylonger.lonwaswaitingforher.

herlegsfeltweakasshesteppedoutofthecar.shepausedandtookadeepbreath,andasshestartedacrosstheparkinglotsherealizedthatshestillwasn'tsurewhatshewasgoingtosaytohim.

andtheanswerdidn'tfinallycomeuntilshereachedthedoorandopeneditandsawlonstandinginthelobby.

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thestoryendsthere,soiclosethenotebook,removemyglassesandwipemyeyes.ilookathernowthatihavefinished,butshedoesnotlookback.insteadsheisstaringoutofthewindowatthecourtyard,wherefriendsandfamilymeet.

ireadtoherthismorning,asidoeverymorning,becauseitissomethingimustdo.notforduty—althoughisupposeacasecouldbemadeforthis—butforanother,moreromanticreason.iwishicouldexplainitmorefullyrightnow,butit'sstillearly,andtalkingaboutromanceisn'treallypossiblebeforelunchanymore, atleastnotforme.besides,ihavenoideahowit'sgoingtoturnout,andtobehonest;i'drathernotgetmyhopesup.

wespendeverydaytogethernow,butournightsarespentalone.thedoctorstellmethati'mnotallowedtoseeherafterdark.iunderstandthereasons,andthoughiagreewiththemcompletelyisometimesbreaktherules.lateatnightwhenmymoodisright,iwillsneakfrommyroomandgotohersandwatchherwhileshesleeps.ofthissheknowsnothing.i'llcomeinandseeherbreatheandknowthat,haditnotbeenforher,iwouldneverhavemarried.

andwhenilookatherface,afaceiknowbetterthanmyown,iknowthatihavemeantasmuchtoher.andthatmeansmoretomethanicouldeverhopetoexplain.

sometimes,wheniamstandingthere,ithinkabouthowluckyiamtohavebeenmarriedtoherforalmostforty-nineyears.nextmonthitwillbethatlong.sheheardmesnoreforthefirstforty-five,butsincethenwehavesleptinseparaterooms.idonotsleepwellwithouther.itossandturnandyearnforherwarmthandlietheremostofthenight,eyesopenwide,watchingtheshadowsdanceacrosstheceilingsliketumbleweedsrollingacrossthedesert.isleeptwohoursifiamlucky,andstilliwakebeforedawn.

ishuffletowardsherandsitinthechairbesideherbed.mybackacheswhenisit.imustgetanewcushionforthischair,iremindmyselfforthehundredthtime.ireachforherhandandtakeit,bonyandfragile.itfeelsnice.sherespondswithatwitch,andgraduallyherthumbbeginstorubmyfingersoftly.idonotspeakuntilshedoes;thisihavelearned.mostdaysisitinsilenceuntilthesungoesdown.

minutespassbeforeshefinallyturnstome.sheiscrying.ismileandreleaseherhand,thenreachinmypocket.itakeoutahandkerchiefandwipeathertears.shelooksatmeasidoso,andiwonderwhatsheisthinking.

"thatwasabeautifulstory."

alightrainbeginstofall.littledropstapgentlyonthewindow.itakeherhandagain.itisgoingtobeagoodday,averygoodday.amagicalday.ismile,ican'thelpit.

"yes,itis,"itellher.

"didyouwriteit?"sheasks,hervoicelikeawhisper.

"yes,"ianswer.

sheturnstowardsthenightstand.hermedicineisinalittlecup. minetoo.littlepills,colourslikearainbowsowewon'tforgettotakethem.theybringmineheretoherroomnow,eventhoughthey'renotsupposedto.

"i'vehearditbefore,haven'ti?"

"yes,"isayagain,justasidoeverytime.ihavelearnedtobepatient.

shestudiesmyface.hereyesareasgreenasoceanwaves.

"itmakesmefeellessafraid,"shesays.

"iknow."inod,rockingmyheadsoftly.

sheturnsaway,andiwaitsomemore.shereleasesmyhandandreachesforherwaterglass.shetakesasip.

"isitatruestory?"shesitsupalittleinherbedandtakesanotherdrink.herbodyisstillstrong."imean,didyouknowthesepeople?"

"yes,"isayagain.icouldsaymore,butusuallyidon't.sheisstillbeautiful.

sheaskstheobvio

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