gantofeelitseffects.butitwasn’tjustthealcoholthatmadeherholdnoahalittletighterandfeethiswarmthagainsther.glancingoutofthewindow,shesawthecloudswerealmostblack."noah,you'veneverasked,butiwantyoutoknowsomething."
"whatisit?"
hervoicewastender."there'sneverbeenanother,noah.youweren'tjustthefirst.you'retheonlyman-i'veeverbeenwith,idon’texpectyoutosaythesamething,butiwantedyoutoknow."
noahwassilentasheturnedaway.shefeltwarmerasshewatchedthefire.sheleanedintohimandfelttheheatbetweenthem,felthisbody,felthisarmtightaroundher.itfeltsorighttobehere.everythingfeltright.thefire,thedrinks,thestorm—it
couldn'thavebeenmoreperfect.itseemedtheiryearsapartdidn'tmatteranymore.
theygaveinthentoeverythingtheyhadfoughtagainstforthelastfourteenyears.allieliftedherheadoffhisshoulder,lookedathimwithhazyeyes,andnoahkissedhersoftlyonthelips.shebroughtherhandtohisfaceandtouchedhischeek,brushingitsoftlywithherfingers.heleanedinandkissedhertenderly,andshekissedback,feelingtheyearsofseparationdissolveintopassion.
sheclosedhereyesandpartedherlipsasheranhisfingersupanddownherarms,slowly,lightly.hekissedherneck,hercheek,hereyelids,andshefeltthemoistureofhismouthlingerwhereverhislipshadtouched.shetookhishandandledittoherbreasts,andawhimperroseinherthroatashegentlytouchedthemthroughthethinfabricoftheshirt.
theworldseemeddreamlikeasshepulledbackfromhim,thefirelightsettingherfaceaglow.withoutspeaking,shestartedtoundothebuttonsonhisshirt.hewatchedherasshediditandlistenedtohersoftbreathsasshemadeherwaydownwards.witheachbuttonhecouldfeelherfingersbrushingagainsthisskin,andshesmiledsoftlyathimwhenshefinallyfinished.hefeltherslideherhandsinside,touchinghimlightly,exploringhisbody.shekissedhisneckgentlyasshepulledtheshirtoverhisshoulders,freeingthesleeves.withthat,heslowlyreachedforher.heliftedhershirtandranhisfingerslowlyacrossherbellybeforeraisingherarmsandslippingitoff.shefeltshortofbreathashishandsgentlycaressedherback,herarms,hershoulders,andshefelttheirheatedbodiespresstogether,skintoskin.
theylayback,closetothefire,andtheheatmadetheairseemthick.sheranherhandsthroughhishairasheheldhimselfaboveher,hisarmmuscleshardfromtheexertion.withalittletemptingfrown,shepulledhimcloser,butheresisted.insteadheloweredhimselfandlightlyrubbedhischestagainsther,andshefeltherbodyrespondwithanticipation.
hedidthisuntilshecouldn'ttakeitanymore,andwhentheyfinallyjoinedasone,shecriedaloudandpressedherfingershardintohisback.sheburiedherfaceinhisneckandfelthimdeepinsideher,felthisstrengthandgentleness.
sheopenedhereyesandwatchedhiminthefirelight,marvellingathisbeauty.shesawhisbodyglistenwithcrystalsweatandfelteveryresponsibility,everyfacetofherlife,slippingaway.
bythetimetherainhadstoppedandthesunhadset,herbodywasexhausted.theyspentthedayineachother'sarms,alternatelymakinglovebythefireandthenholdingeachotherastheywatchedtheflamescurlaroundthewood.herecitedhisfavouritepoemsasshelaybesidehim,andshelistenedwithhereyesclosedandalmostfeltthewords.thentheyjoinedagainandhemurmuredwordsoflovebetweenkissesastheywrappedtheirarmsaroundoneanother.
theywentonthroughouttheevening,makingupfortheiryearsapart,andsleptineachother'sarmsthatnight.occasionallyhewouldwakeupandlookather,herbodyspentandradiant,andfeelasifeverythingweresuddenlytightinthisworld.
once,whenhewaslookingatherinthemomentsbeforedaybreak,hereyesflutteredopenandshesmiledandreacheduptotouchhisface.heputhisfingerstoherlips,gently,tokeepherfromspeaking,andforalongtimetheyjustlookedatoneanother.
whenthelumpinhisthroatsubsided,hewhisperedtoher,"youaretheanswertoeveryprayeri’veoffered.youareasong,adream,awhisper,andidon'tknowhowicouldhavelivedwithoutyouforaslongasihave.iloveyou,allie,morethanyoucaneverimagine,ialwayshaveandialwayswill."
"oh,noah,"shesaid,pullinghimtoher.shewantedhim,neededhimnowmorethanever,likenothingshe'deverknown.
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laterthatsamemorning,threemen-twolawyersandthejudge—satinchamberswhilelonfinishedspeaking.
"it’sanunusualrequest,"thejudgeanswered,ponderingthesituation."itseemstomethetrialcouldverywellendtoday.areyousayingthismattercan'twaituntillaterthiseveningortomorrow?"
"no,yourhonour,itcant,"lonansweredalmosttooquickly.stayrelaxed,hetoldhimself.takeadeepbreath.
"andithasnothingtodowiththiscase?"
"no,yourhonour.it'sofapersonalnature.iknowit'soutoftheordinary,butireallyneedtotakecareofit."
thejudgeleanedbackinhischair,evaluatinghimforamoment."mr.bates,howdoyoufeelaboutthis?"
thelawyerclearedhisthroat."mr.hammondcalledmethismorningaridi'vealreadyspokentomyclients.they'rewillingtopostponeuntilmonday.mr.hammondhasagreedinreturntoreopendiscussiononacertainmatternotcoveredbythisproceeding."
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